今天是5月8日。
错过了一次培训，LA那个四眼阿姨说只能给我争取到15号。
和ZC 在医院聊了很久，我说这个社会这么黑暗，我们还能坚持多久。
说完我们都只是低头笑笑。
不管怎么样，我说我们要生活，要成长，始终要经历一些匪夷所思。
我发短信给PP，只打了一句：我觉得我要疯了。
不再说话。
跳了几天的右眼皮，现在依然继续。
下午，我删了所有所有的短信和来电号码后。
给一个人电话，我们都知道，他要往上爬。
其实我挺谢谢一个人，就是Savage。
难得在这个时候我还静的下心来听Don McLean唱《Vincent》。
因为我觉得，我要慢慢的平静，我要面对的人，比我想的要厉害。
我慢慢的觉得其实这样很累，我是一个很善变的人。
请假4天，4天后我还是要会公司上班。
就看看结果。
记得读书时，我给谁说过，我这辈子最怕小人。
现在，我还是这么想，并且，我觉得自己也变成了个小人。
我还有什么资格说别人什么呢？闭嘴吧，可怜的小人。
可怜的TRACY！~你要加油。
Starry starry night
paint your palette blue and grey
look out on a summer's day
with eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills
sketch the trees and the daffodils
catch the breeze and the winter chills
in colors on the snowy linen land.
And now I understand
what you tried to say to me
and how you suffered for your sanity
and how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen they did not know how
perhaps they'll listen now.
Starry starry night
flaming flowers that brightly blaze
swirling clouds in violet haze
reflect in Vincent's eyes of China blue.
Colors changing hue
morning fields of amber grain
weathered faces lined in pain
are smoothed beneath the artist's loving hand.
And now I understand
what you tried to say to me
and how you suffered for your sanity
and how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen they did not know how
perhaps they'll listen now.
For they could not love you
but still your love was true
and when no hope was left in sight on that
starry starry night.
You took your life as lovers often do,
But I could have told you Vincent
this world was never meant for one as beautiful as you.
Starry starry night
portraits hung in empty halls
frameless heads on nameless walls
with eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the stranger that you've met
the ragged men in ragged clothes
the silver thorn of bloddy rose
lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.
And now I think I know
what you tried to say to me
and how you suffered for your sanity
and how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen they're not listening still
perhaps they never will.

by lune